the firsts of infertility


Good day, friends! I have been super silent over here just taking in all that is about to happen. Our lives are about to change in the best, most amazing way. The route to get to Evie Rose has been a road filled with anger, frustration, and utter despair, but I wouldn’t trade it. For anything. Absolutely nothing.

It is true, infertility lead us to adoption. I never thought I would say this, but this diagnosis was a stepping stone into one of the greatest decisions we’ve ever made. If it wasn’t for our struggle with infertility, we would not be Evie Rose’s parents. We would not know our amazing birth family. We would not be the druley we have become over the last six and half years.

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. In honor of this week, I want to share my very first post about our struggle with infertility. Little did I know, I was writing about the ministry the Lord had planned all along.


Yes. Dru and I have officially been labeled an “infertile” couple. To be honest, I regret so much not posting or journaling about this whole journey. I know that I have found such comfort in other stories of couples struggling with infertility. I dream one day of being able to share this very long and difficult journey with someone who needs to hear it to get them through. 

I will write a post later on about all of the blood work, procedures, and surgeries I have done thus far, but tonight I just wanted to put this information out here in cyber world and just vent. 
I am so very humbled at how many friends at work and at church that tell me that they are thinking of me or just send me random text messages that they are praying for us. I can not even explain what this means. Prayer is so powerful. I literally feel the presence of God surrounding me and helping me get through each day. His presence has never been needed more and more available to me in all my life. 
This is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before, and I know that there is a reason and I do have hope. But, sometimes that hope gets lost for a little while. It might take me a few days to get myself out of the pit of depression, but with prayer and Dru… I seem to get through it. 
I do update a lot of my very close friends or people that ask me just in conversation, but I do feel like this blog will help me release all my thoughts and feelings…. when I want to and how I want to. I know that sounds a little crazy, but I’ve got a lot, I mean a lot, of c-r-a-z-y stuff going on in my head! 
Now to update on where we are as of yesterday… Dru and I went to see my fabulous doc! He is the absolute best ever! He explained to us that after one year of TTC and then coming to see him and TTC another year that it was time for us to see a specialist. Can I just say first of all, that I was aware this was coming, but it hit me like a ton of bricks when I actually heard the word, infertility, come out of his mouth. I think it just became like a real diagnosis at that point. He told us that our records and information will be sent over and the office will be contacting us, so until then.. We wait. What do ya know? That’s what I’ve been doing for 2+ years. What’s another 2 or 4 weeks? 
Whoa. I feel such a sense of relief. Believe it or not, the Lord has been tugging at my heart to do this for WEEKS! Glad it’s done. 
And now I know why He was nudging me to write. He needed me to open up so that others could hear that they are not alone. If you are in the midst of the heavy diagnosis that infertility brings, please reach out to me or someone. I would LOVE to connect with you.
If you know someone struggling, please love them and do your best to not offer them advice, that’s one of the hardest parts of this journey. 
Lots of love,


  1. You are one of the strongest faithful person I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. God bless you KB

  2. Thanks for sharing this friend!

  3. I was diagnosed with PCOS a few years ago. And now that I’m married the fear of not being able to get pregnant terrifies me. Have been married for 1 1/2 yrs, and even when we are not *trying* (right now doesn’t seem like the best time due to finances) the not knowing kills me.

    • Kailey Birkeland says:

      Don’t live in fear, friend. Lean in to His promises and the truth of God’s word. Even when our hope is shaken, He is our rock! Have a blessed day 🙂

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